bitter herbs

apparently, sometime when you're not watching, something evil can get inside your body and take over, causing havoc in places you only thought cancer could reach. or maybe fire. but this fury comes from something you can barely see. but often others can see it... in your skin ,your eyes... but since they never saw the invasion that occurred years before (because of it's microscopic form and clarity), they assume that perhaps you need more sun. "maybe she hides from the sun," they whisper. "who would hate sunlight the way she despises it?" the acidic, peculiar enemy eats away at your arms and eyes, but all they can see is the paleness in your cheeks; the weakness of your voice.
from the earth i am pulling what they say can chase away this disease. and i pray as i swallow hard. if i remove it, will they finally see me? because of this fever i no longer care..

the dirt is bitter. and playing here put smudges on my manicure.

but after all, if mud is what they're looking for, this is the right place to find it.


for here lie dirt, tears, and a child more beautiful in the light of the sun.